Thursday, July 21, 2011

Keeping on track....for more than a day

I have been avoiding updating on here simply because I haven't had a whole lot to say. A lot has been going on this last week with the passing of my Grandmother and her funeral. No matter how well prepared you are when the time comes, it is still heart-wrenching to say those goodbyes.

Overall I did fairly well with eating semi-healthy while out of town. With emotions out of kilter it is hard to not eat emotionally. But I only had a couple sodas over the weekend (mostly to keep me awake for the drive home) and the only time I ate "bad" was Friday night. My boyfriend, Marshall, and I went with some friends to the county fair that night. It was just the thing I needed after a long emotional day at the funeral and with family. We laughed, had fun, and even went on the cheesy Haunted House ride. It was perfect for us because all of us are in the paranormal research group in Casper, WY. I'll say more about it in a later post, but for anyone interested the website is here. Later we went back to the house of our friend Sarah that we were staying with. We ended up staying up far too late (around 3am) drinking wine, laughing, and talking. We even tried a fabulous mead. I love honey wine!

Anyways, I'm back to work and getting back into the swing of things. I am rather proud of myself. I haven't had a soda since this weekend. It is a hard thing for considering I have such a sweet tooth and am a caffeine addict. I have also been eating lots more fruits and veggies this week and I am feeling better for it. I just have to take it one day and one step at a time.

That's all for tonight. Tomorrow I will post more on getting back on track and gym hunting. I will hopefully post soon on the meaning behind the title to the blog and a bit more about me.

Monday, July 11, 2011

Back with a vengeance

This is the start of my blog and re-entry into the ongoing battle with my weight loss. After reading some inspirational blogs (like Krista!) I have decided to start one myself. I am on SparkPeople (you can find my page here if you are interested), but I wanted a semi-fresh start. I have let myself slide the last couple months on any attempt whatsoever at healthy eating or exercise. And it shows. Let me present Exhibit A:

So basically at this point I am starting over. 5 years ago I had been a part of T.O.P.S. (Take Off Pounds Sensibly) and working out at Curves. I lost 30 pounds and 2 pant sizes and I was feeling great. Just a short 3 years later and the pounds start to creep back on. And now it is back. And my body is letting me know with a vengeance it isn't happy. 

A couple years ago I dislocated my knee at work, did physical therapy, and it got better. Now it screams at me anytime I have to do stairs. Period. Which is lovely considering I live on a second floor apartment and I have to climb a very long 2 flights of stairs everyday to get to my office at work. I also have back problems. If I sit, stand, lay, or be in any position for too long my back aches. And that is every day. With the extra weight back on the pain never seems to go away. 

To make life even more fun, I went to the doctor this week. My blood pressure is high. 130/80 to be exact. Now granted life has been more than stressful the last month or so. Dealing with a move to another state, waiting for my boyfriend to hear about a job, and my grandmother dying will do that to a person. Still, high blood pressure is common in my family and I would prefer to get this taken care of now. At least (to my knowledge) I don't have diabetes yet. That is literally my worst nightmare. So I need to get back up and try again....and again...and again. I know I will fall off on this ride, but I have to keep going.

Part of me feels silly writing this and reaching out into the great unknown for help and support from strangers as well as my wonderful friends and family. But it feels good to share. It feels good to read other blogs. See other peoples success stories and how they are inspiration. It is good to know I am not alone in this battle.

I could ramble on and on tonight. There is a lot on my mind. However, I need to organize my thoughts and I will keep this hopefully short.

My short-term goals:
1) Lose 10 pounds by August 15 (the absolute latest date I can order my dress for the Renaissance Festival). It may not make a big difference, but it will make me feel better!
2) Cut out soda and most sugary drinks (ie Minute Maid Juices) aside from the occasional cheat day on Saturdays and replace it with water and iced tea.
3) Do my yoga everyday for the next week
4) Do 30 minutes of cardio 3 days this week

My long-term goals:
1) Lose 121.8 pounds for a final weight of 160. A few years back my Dr. wanted me under 160 for my back, that and I love my curves :-)
2) To be able to do a headstand in my yoga practice
3) To be able to run a mile without walking

At some point in the next week or so I will talk more about my goals and their meaning, but for now I have them down and out there. It is my hope that this blog will help keep me more accountable to myself.

I am off to a good start so far. I only had one soda this weekend and have been drinking water and tea most of the day today. I also did yoga last night and tonight. So I know I will sleep well.

Oh and of course, a weight loss blog wouldn't be complete without the infamous BEFORE pics. These are not the most flattering pics I have ever had taken of me, but they work. Sorry for the closed eyes in the profile happens. And please excuse the boxes in the background. How I hate moving.

You can tell I am oh so thrilled.   
Thanks for making it through a very long first blog!